It's funny how seemingly little it takes to bring things back to some semblance of normalcy.
I've been talking to this person more and more. It would seem, at the very least, that she doesn't hate me. More so, she actually seems to want to talk to me. I gave her a ride home in my car yesterday, which feels like a pretty big deal for some reason-- that someone would trust me with something like that. No one ever has before.
From the sound of things, we are going out to play pool on Sunday. Another first. It's almost overwhelming. --that someone would actually want to spend time with me outside of school or work.
I feel fine lately. It is as though I have met some basic criteria. It's as if something was close to meltdown before, but everything is stable again because of the difference this one person has made. I was never asking for much, after all. I don't really know what it is. I keep thinking that somehow, I feel validated.
All it takes, it would seem, is someone to talk to on a semi-regular basis. All of the negativity I had been burdened with before has been replaced with anticipation. I simply can't wait for our next meeting.
I keep thinking of how it is like a drug. When I'm near enough to see her, all of those funny brain chemicals become active. The last post I made was the result of what of what could be compared with withdrawal symptoms, as it had been several days since I'd spoken to her last, and at the time it didn't seem like this pattern of behavior of hers would continue.