I'm late to the crying game, but I must express how broken my heart is.
Months of excitement and preparation.. but my newly built rig is beautiful and I am incredibly happy with that investment.
I'm sorry to say I was foolish in that I expected something of a sequel to FFXI. I loved that game and I still get nostalgic about the five years I played it.
I miss the interdependency of FFXI. Sure, we waited hours for parties, but it was a common suffering. Players were egalitarian by means of experience obtaining-- in other words, we worked together, and we worked hard.
I miss having to deal with Japanese players. They were efficient and generally accommodating as I cannot type in gana or kata, just romaji. I had a few JP players on my friends list, just to keep in touch.
I miss how in love with my avatar I was. Roleplaying was easy and fun to do-- not so in an individual-emphasized game system like FFXIV's. I had a directive and so did everyone I encountered. Level seventy may not be such an admirable goal, but the journey made it worth while. When parties were not available, we had the option to do something that felt different: crafting or skilling or farming.
I have not played FFXIV for a week and a half, now. Honestly, I have no desire to. When I last "played," I downloaded the version update, I teleported back to Limsa, and I logged out. I can't believe how personally I am taking this disappointment. My boyfriend purchased both of our collector's editions and upgraded his computer for a game that is the biggest letdown of any game we've played. He was afraid of hurting my feelings and hesitated to tell me how awful a letdown it all was... This sounds deeper than it is, but we took this disappointment to heart.
At this point, I am seriously considering dismantling my character and my account to return to FFXI.
I may be foolish to expect it to be what it was... some research is in order.
I am trying to not be sorry that I purchased and anticipated FFXIV. More, I am trying to be hopeful and nostalgic about the prospect of returning to my most favourite MMO.